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Monday, 21 September 2009
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I honestly am convinced that I'm a social misfit and a total weirdo e.g. Zhiyan or Sandra Khoo, just much louder and a little more concerned with enjoying teenhood.
Or maybe I just am not as worth remembering as other normal people are.
Fuck.
*Fuck man, bitch, study for promos
Tuesday, 15 September 2009
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I suddenly feel the urgent need to fit in, to be appreciated/liked by my friends. Haven't been labelled as the person with the highest EQ so I guess it's inevitable people don't like me as much as they like others.
On a happier note I got A for my German prelims.
Hopefully it stays this way for my German A levels as well.
Farah is pissed 22/26 of us skipped her tutorial. Can't blame her; we pang-ed her seh. Can't blame us; we don't get much out of her tutorials. Hopefully Tas' email will appease her
PW is a bugger; major time-waster and irritant. WHAT THE HELL I want to study for my promos (I swear I'm going to screw it) and DUH German but since I haven't been a very cooperative PW teammate I guess I can help my REWRITING THE WHOLE WR WHICH IS CURRENTLY VERY WORRYING AND DEPRESSING. But obviously I shouldn't tell anyone so I won't give anyone any false hopes again. But so far I haven't even finished the first chapter 'cause I slept for what, 5 hours since I came home @ 2?! That's for turning in @ 3+ last night. Morning.
Tuesday, 11 August 2009
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I think it's because of all the dumb issues with relationships and my ugly hair and all my disgusting physical flaws: scars, scabs, blemishes, frizzy unruly hair, FAT TTM WTFOMGBBQ I really h8 myself nao :( :( :(
&I'm not feeling safe that I am not worried for my promos. What if I retain :( Damn slack and laid back recently, I don't even bother to pay careful attention during lectures anymore. It is only fifty more days till promos.
&it feels like everyone's in a better situation/body than I am :(
Monday, 03 August 2009
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Currently
(What's the Story) Morning Glory?
By Oasis
Wonderwall
see relatedI am very very moody.
Walking out on the lecturer, crying out of nowhere, then laughing and acting really hyper but honestly, I really don't feel good.
I don't know why the fuck I am like this. Oh fine I do know why (stop lying to yourself Erica), I just don't know why such things have to happen to me.That's why I'm binging. And I'll be gaining weight, which will add on to my lousy mood.I feel like the biggest bitch.
Saturday, 01 August 2009
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I think I'm thankful that she's taking the initiative to ask me out...? But I need to do my German (with Delaney) and that kinda clashes. It's even more difficult to turn her down though.
I don't know; she's changed so much. (much skinnier too) I don't know how she feels about me; I want to find out. Does she really mean it when she says she treasures this, or is she only telling me that to make me feel better about myself? 'Cause at the very least, this means a lot to me.&it just seems to me that you and I are drifting further apart. You don't even want to sit with me (or us) anymore and she's become first place; it kinda gets annoying sometimes but I know you are not to be blamed because everyone has her own preference(s) and I can't stop you if you choose her over me. It's just really shitty to feel like a substitute, you know?
Can't help it though, you guys have been good friends since at least 2 years ago and we've only started getting to really (really?) know each other this year. I just don't know what the fuck I was thinking when I chose to turn people down to, wtf, accompany you so that you won't feel so alone.
Yeah shut up I'm still at it?!
Gosh this is stupid what a bloody moron.
Not that you're not worth it; I just don't like to feel like I'm not.
Haven't done this stupid anon-entry-kind-of-thing in the past year or so and I cannot believe I am actually doing/I have to do it again.
shriekshitsorry
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- Name: Erica
- Birthday: 6/27/1992
- Gender: Female
- Member Since: 5/19/2008
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